I think nothing beats my stubbornness.

Reflection

Read this on my cousin's notes. Thought it was beautifully written. To all men, a woman's heart is fragile, treasure her as yourself. To all women, men are not our slaves, neither should they be made to carry our shopping bags. They are to be loved, to be cherished, to be respected.
Enjoy.


Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the hand above--
A woman's heart, and a woman's life
And a woman's wonderful love?

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy,
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy?

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Man-like you have questioned me;
Now stand at the bar of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.

You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart to be true as God's stars,
And as pure as heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef;
I require a far better thing.
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts;
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called home,
And a man that the maker, God,
Shall look upon as he did the first
And say, "It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose will fade
From my soft, young cheek one day,
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mid the bloom of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and deep,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give all this, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot do this -- a laundress and cook
You can hire, with little to pay,
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.

~Mary T. Lathrap (1838-1895)

Life as it is.

The only certainty about life and our existence as we know it is how changes, in and around it, are inevitable. So it’s not about being the best in what you do, or making it to the top to clinch number one place. It’s how well you move around change and adapt to it. It’s what you choose to do with the shit handed to you. Do you rise above it, surface and swim to shore to safety and a new beginning, or do you get pulled under by the currents and drown?

~Ng Kar Mun. ;)

A small sip of coffee on this rainy Satuday evening.

I always help those whom i think is in need.
But I do not like to be taken advantage of because of that.

I always talk about being very 'fong pin' for i stay on the 18th floor of my Residence.
But don't worry, i never really have any serious thought about that. Yet.

I may look serious all the time,
But i actually am not as serious as you think i am.

I may look like i don't give a damn at all,
But deep inside i do, just that i hid it so you'll never know.

I may look like i know nothing, oh yes.
But i know, You know?

I may act like a serious problem doesn't affect me at all,
But it does.

I don't like to face my problems alone,
But i hate it even more if i had to share my worries.

I don't like to sleep alone,
But listen to what i've got to tell you all when i have someone with me.

You don't like to hurt others,
But sometimes you do it intentionally just to regret it later on.

You don't like hypocrites,
But sometimes you are one yourself.

You are taught to be polite to others,
But what happens when others do not reciprocate?

You are doing what you are now,
But is that really what you want to do?

You talk as if you know everything,
But do you?

You thought you can handle your own pain, you protected yourself,
But can you really?

You hesitate,
Why?

You kept things to yourself because you do not want to have others worry about you, or get even more confused,
But sometimes, sharing is caring.

Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know.

No life is a waste;

the only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone.

Never give in

So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.

Morrie Schwartz

Who is that girl i see staring straight back at me?

give me the whole day. i can easily spend that 24 precious hours just thinking and doing nothing else.

i never fail to think about everything every time i get on the bus back to my college. which made the 7 minutes journey back shortened to a mere 30 seconds. how cool is that?!

i'm always thinking. and i find myself thinking even better whenever i'm on a moving vehicle, be it a bicycle, motorbike, car, bus or train... not yet an airplane. heh. seriously. it feels gooooood to be thinking, especially when you have nothing to do but wait. that's what happens when u go to the city. that's why kay-hell people moves so fast, as if their live are shortened by halves, compared to us taiping people, when we can have ALL the time we want in this beautiful peaceful taiping town.

whenever i want to get out of this creepy small hostel room, i have to think. (oh, maybe this's one of the reasons i've been thinking so much too.) how long would this journey take? how far is my destination from my place? do i have enough time to spend with my friends? am i ever going to get back in time? its peak hour! i can't go out or get back during peak hours! which leaves me to; going back later at night. which then lead to; how am i getting back before the night falls and all hamsap looking taxi drivers start charging you double the price when it comes to midnight? no offense to some really really nice taxi drivers, but i cant help it! geeez. and before the lrt gets isolated and leaves u alone with some weird looking foreign workers staring at you like you'll be their next victim??? D= i would rather then tumpang any of my friends' place to stay for the night for my life is too worthy to be risked that way thank you. thanks agnes and yan! that's what friends are for right? and i got a free gift from dear yan too. a toothbrush! i forgot to bring mine. no, i did not forget, i dont even plan to stay over. see, that's what happens. these are the kind of friends u need when u stay in kay-hell. oh dear.

that's how sad those city people are. no offense to kay-hell ppl ya. yes, it's kay-hell. lei chui ah!

half of their day are spent on traveling alone. SO MOU LIU. sides, come weekends, and u'll see everybody rushing out of their houses buying a week's worth of groceries and whatever necessities. hey! we buy fresh from market everyday wan ok! EVERYDAY. no need rush rush wan. no need planning wan. we only need to think what food to buy on that day. and that's it! yal have to plan for one whole week! hah! blek! we win we win! ignore me madness please.

so what happen to those times when i can sit down n think and lepak all the time without worrying about those stuff above? when i can enjoy every single silent moment i can have?

we are all going too fast now, too fast that we don't even care to stop. STOP. just stop and think about today. stop and start reflecting on today. what did you do? what happened this morning? was that the right thing to do? have u just ignored someone who was calling after you just now? when there is a chance to help someone in need, did u take that chance? or were u too busy with your own life that u didn't even noticed? did u say hi? HAVE U SMILED AT ALL TODAY? there.

now go and take some time off, relax and do something for yourself.

silence. so beautiful, so peaceful, yet so difficult to obtain.

Home by Rooster

I like to live life in motion
No time for slowing down
No time to turn around
Im just a wave on this ocean
Moving fast until the day that I come crashing down
But I wont make a sound
Sometimes we all feel broken
And we need a place to hide

I find my way home
Every road that takes me takes me home
To a place I know my time is mine alone
Home
I find my way home
Cause you know its good to get your feet back on the ground

I need to see new horizons
Watch the red eye setting fire to a thousand skies
Makes me feel alive
I spread my wings free fall diving
And I am constantly reminded that
Sometimes we all feel broken
And we need a place to hide

Its time to save me from myself
Lock me up inside
Floating on a feeling I cant hide
I find my way home

I find my way home
Every road that takes me takes me home
To a place I know my time is mine alone
Home
I find my way home
Cause you know its good to put your feet down

屋顶

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半夜睡不著觉 把心情哼成歌

只好到屋顶找另一个梦境

睡梦中被敲醒 我还是不确定

怎会有动人弦律在对面的屋顶

我悄悄关上门 带著希望上去

原来是我梦里常出现的那个人

那个人不就是我梦里那模糊的人

我们有同样的默契

用天线 排成爱你的形状

在屋顶唱著你的歌

在屋顶和我爱的人　

让星星点缀成最浪漫的夜晚

拥抱这时刻 这一分一秒全都停止

爱开始纠结

在屋顶唱著你的歌　

在屋顶和我爱的人　

将泛黄的夜献给最孤独的月

拥抱这时刻 这一分一秒全都停止

爱开始纠结

梦有你而美

让我爱你是谁 　 让你爱我是谁

怎会有动人弦律环绕在我俩的身边

让我爱你是谁 让你爱我是谁

原来是这屋顶有美丽的邂逅

在屋顶唱著你的歌 在屋顶和我爱的人

...punishment does not work, wants to impress...

The first born lives in a world of conditional love. Always thinking that love can be lost at any moment the first born interacts cautiously with others.

The Beginning

The first born starts life as an only child basking in more than enough love. Everything changes when mother brings this tiny stranger home from who-knows-where. When the stranger whimpers, mother tells the first born to wait while she takes care of the baby. The oldest child is stunned at being rejected. He never got set aside like this before.

"Is It Something I Did?

As the oldest child watches mother have entirely too much fun with this stranger he (or she) concludes that he must have done something terribly wrong for mother to reject him. He begins to feel guilty about what he does, thinks and feels, a sense of guilt that carries on throughout life. But, he can never figure out what he did wrong.

Lifelong Implications

The first born lives in fear that he will inadvertently offend someone so that what little love there is will be lost. He is afraid to say what he thinks, wants or feels so "I don't know" becomes a standard answer. What do you think? I don't know. What do you want for supper? I don't know. What would you like to do tonight? I don't know.

First Born Body Language

Body language lets you identify the first born as he keeps nodding his head in agreement. The first born waits to know what you think before venturing an opinion, an opinion that will agree with what you said. The first born will expend great effort to please you if you mention what you want. However, real interaction with the first born is difficult.

First Borns

First borns do have strengths. Having led younger siblings, they tend to be leaders that others will follow. Listening to others makes them into research thinkers that enable them to pursue research tirelessly. Clearly, firstborns are natural leaders. They also tend to be reliable, conscientious and perfectionists who don't like surprises.

They love to be right and hate to be contradicted. Oldest children may show off their knowledge or abilities to other children or adults in order to gain appreciation, love and respect. They are competent at an early age and may be responsible beyond their years. In some cases, this causes the first born to grow up too quickly, which may affect them throughout their lives to come.

When first borns do not achieve their goals, they often suffer from extreme guilt. They feel as though they've failed themselves, their parents, and those around them. They feel a loss of love from others when they've failed, whether or not that loss is actually there. They also have a strong sense of justice which contributes to their feeling of guilt - they think that people should get what they deserve. This makes it that much harder to convince a first born that failing at a project does not make them a bad person.