It has been quite some time. ;)
I'm so excited for the new year which explains this early new year post. A brief one.
First of all, I did a lot of reflections.
* ~Who... is that girl I see... Staring straight, back at me?... ~*
Looking back, I am proud to say that I achieved my main goal for this year and I believe I am happier and comfortable being who I am and living my life throughout this year. I also learnt to make mistakes, and accept some of myself and others, and forgive.
Although not always, there is a grey in between a white and a black. And I have finally began to understand this.
I learned to see more of the good things in life because they are all there, I only need to be able to SEE it in a different perspective.
I have grown stronger, a year wiser, and achieved some things I never thought I'd achieve at this time of my life. This year taught me a lot of things, but most important of all, we only live life once. When else to do what I said I'm gona do if not now?
Do it now, or regret it later. I'd rather regret having done something, than regret having done nothing later on in my life. Whatever I think I should do, this time, I'd just do it. Go for it. Don't say no. Don't reject, if it is really what I want. Who else can do it for myself but myself?
This year also sees humility taking over my old self. I learnt to relate to people and their life stories, and I realized that there are so much more out there that I have yet to explore, when I could give them my time, genuinely.
With the completion of my dissertation, greater things will be waiting for me. For me to explore and chase after. HOWEVER, having a LIFE is what I want and will go after first. There are so so soooo many things out there waiting for me to explore, especially people. I want to see and learn new things at my own pace. I want to take the time to look at the clouds, experience the sea breeze and serenity from the sound of the waves hitting on the shore, listen to music, understand people, and be inspired by so many more things in life that is so beautiful if I could only find more time to pause, and see, listen, smell, touch and feel them. But if I were to just go around chasing after a life, monetary-wise, I will not be able to do and experience what I want. As I have sorta have an idea of my life for myself, I hope the future would be kind to me and let me achieve my aspirations meaningfully.
HAHA. Ok, that sounded very far-fetched, but yeah, any company who wants a person like me, please by all means, contact me. I will be officially unemployed soon so...call me! XD
