L.O.S.T.

i think i have lost myself.

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i don't know whether i was really leading a life i wanted for the past 2 years (except for that 2 months or more).

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i don't know if i was myself.

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i have lost a precious possession. something i used to have and must have to continue with my life. to become who i used to be and who i will be. i don't know where it went. it faded slowly while i continue living a life of emptiness. it was not until today that i finally realise it was the absence of it that has kept me from the real me.

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i think it was partly because of the slight change of environment around me. however, if i were to be somewhere else, i think i will lose myself competely.

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OR

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another cause would be because i was lying to myself all this while. but, was i? why would i?

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so, why?

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where can i find it? will i ever find it back?

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oh my god. help me.