Monday, August 31, 2009

"friendship? yes, please. "

There is something i want to share with everyone today.

Here it is -

I was sitting on a chair in my living room when the house phone rang. Jo picked up the phone, and her expression changed immediately after hearing what seemed to be a very shocking news. She covers the receiver and whispers to me that my friend has just passed away. That call was from my friend’s mum. I was dumbfounded. I didn’t know what to do. I sat there, my mind blank.

Is this how it felt like? The death of your closest friend/relative? I couldn’t believe my ears. I do not want to believe it. She’s only 18. Has not even celebrated her 19th birthday and God is taking her life away already? So soon?

No. This can’t be true.

My sis put down the phone, and told me the funeral is the day after tomorrow. She told her (my friend’s) mum we’ll all be there for the funeral.

I finally found my voice. “Jo, did she say what the cause of her death was?”

***

A lot of stuff flashed across my mind. Memories of us with a bunch of friends hanging out together, laughed, cried, and celebrated together.

And of course, procrastinating together too. Mustn’t miss that out.

I went to bed at night, still not knowing how to face the fact. I do silently wish when i wake up the next day, it would be just a dream gone bad. Sadly though, when i woke up and ask my sis if all these things happening yesterday were true, it was a nod.

Knowing your closest friend has just passed on...

I just couldn’t tell how bad it felt.

We did so many things together. But yet, there are still many things out there waiting for us to do.

***

I woke up again the next day, telling myself this is not true. No, it is not true.

And thank god, it is NOT true. It was a stupid dream that i had all this while. Stupid stupid stupid dream. Scares the hell out of me. Worst dream ever. I do hope i’ll never get this kinda dream ever ever again. I don’t think i can take it if it comes attacking me the 2nd time.

Anyway, her ‘death’ was due to lack of sleep and overwork.

So to all of you out there who gets less than 7 hours of sleep every day, please, PLEASE CHANGE YOUR SLEEPING ROUTINE N.O.W. Although it is just a dream, but having insufficient rest/sleep will really really take your life away.

"This is a COMMUNITY SERVICE BROUGHT TO YOU BY J.E.N.N.I.F.E.R."

Over & out.

The world would be so lonely in sunny hours or gray,
Without the gift of friendship to help us every day.

9 comments:

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Unknown said...

omy,who passed away??lolx!~nearly fall into it/nearly believe it..

eejane said...

1. you finally updated, please do it more regularly.

2. fuck you, jen. i totally skip the whole part just to search for the name of the person that died.

3. i would like my death to be that fun and sudden. why not?

4. community service wo..haha. kh chui la.

jenn said...

1. my friend, not that i dun wana update, couldn't find the time and mood. lol.

2. mana ada orang baca pendahuluan then terus penutup wan. tak tgk isi isinya pun??

3. hey. i cannot tell 1. its between me, myself and i.

YanMing said...

what were u thinking writing a post like this??!!wanna give ppl a heart attack is it??

eejane said...

what does your #3 mean?

yan, didnt die of heart attack? boringggg.

jenn said...

yan, that was exactly how i felt in the dream & when i woke up. so.
anyway, glad that u could feel how i felt. =)

And jane, u're so cruel. don't curse my labbit like that.

S3r3n@ said...

jenn,i encourage u to tel out or at least let the person knw tat u dream of her death...u tel it n it will not happen...if u keep it then it might happen...i oso gt dream of our fren death n i jz tel out...hahaha...tats y till nw she is safe....haha...anyway at least u still remember n tel out ur dream...otherwise it might happen lo one day...haha...touch wood k...hehe...

Jun said...

sweat.. i wanted to know who is that person so freaking badly and end up it's a dream.. good one though.. very convincing.. if exam got complete essay starting with bla bla bla, you sure can get very high marks.. hahaha..
and another good thing is the community service thing like mix.fm.. haha.. so smart you can think of that.. =)